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Grateful Monday 12/5/11

05 Dec

I’m so grateful for everything in my life right now. There are still some hard things in it, but lots and lots of fun things are happening too. Busy, busy, busy! I’m sure many of you are in the same situation getting ready for the holidays. I have recipes I will be sharing with you, dolls I’m making for granddaughters. You’ll get the first peak. :) We’ve been Christmas shopping and wrapping and adding up ingredients for cookies, it all takes time doesn’t it? I am enjoying working on these things though, hope you are too. “Wherever you are, be all there.” Jim Elliot. Yes, I want to be all here and fully conscious of my life, it’s busy-ness and the joy that is here if I just let myself realize it.

Every Monday I try to share my gratitude list. I am part of the community over at Ann Voskamp’s A Holy Experience. I love her introduction of herself, you can read it here and see if it touches you as well if you like. The list helps me focus on the good in my life, my happy moments. The simple things and the complex loves of my life. I am very grateful for this discipline that is growing in me to remember to appreciate the many good and beautiful things around me. You see, it is very very easy for me to focus on the heavy things, the hard things, the things that go bump in my life. I have to work diligently to remember to be grateful, to look for opportunities of gratitude. That may sound like a bad thing to you, but it has been a very very good thing for me. :)

Goodness is all around us, even in the busy times. Even in the hard times. We just have to learn how to appreciate it I think. So, here is my little list for today, I’m grateful for:

1. Christmas, and the love it represents. He came for love’s sake, not for the sake of rules and regulations.

2. Lists, and recipes, and books and ingredients and chocolate and sugar.

3. For friends and family to give to, for dolls to make and presents to find and joy to share in living life and giving and receiving love and comfort from each other as well as things as simple as a gift.

4. For Natilee, because she helped me today and asked me to tell you so. :) She is the eldest granddaughter that lives with me. I really enjoyed her helping me today, she was reading out the cookie recipes so we could share them with you in a few days. Yum!

5. For help from Boyfriend too. It comes in handy to have a couple of extra hands around sometimes, doesn’t it?

6. For warm home, and soft bed and running water and clean clothes. I am grateful for my blessings.

7. For remembering trust is important, when I trust that God loves me and looks out for me I don’t have to give in to worry and dread.

8. I’m also grateful I started sewing the dolls I aim to give as prezzies in 20 days or so. They aren’t going to make themselves.

9. For plans for my life, for my businesses and for the hope and promise the future holds.

10. For Christmas movies and cartoons that remind us all how important family and friends are. I especially love Rudolph the Rednosed Reindeer. The Island Of Misfit Toys is where some of my best friends used to live. :)

11. I am grateful for fun, and some upcoming things will be fun for me! One will happen tomorrow, I will be the Fine Feathered Friend for the 12/6 Flock Together Tuesday Blog Hop hosted by Mom’s Best Nest. Then later in December I will be a Grilled Grandma on Grandma’s Briefs. Finally, the end of the month brings my next birthday, the big 5-0! Not to mention Christmas Eve and Christmas. Sounds to me like it’s gonna be more fun than one month can hold! “Woo-hoo,” as Yukon Cornelius would say. :) Woo-hoo indeed. Have a wonderful week! Angela

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Love Is…

17 Jun

…something that needs to be cultivated, just like a field of crops or flowers you plant in your yard. If you don’t pursue the weeds and remove them, they will overtake your lovely flower bed. The same goes for helping love have a place to bloom inside of us. When we have unloving thoughts towards others, those are the weeds. Those thoughts won’t just leave by themselves. You have to pull them out and say “No!” to them and replace them with a loving thought towards the one the weed was growing against. Sometimes these word weeds are growing against our family or friends, sometimes they are growing against ourselves. Either way, you have to do something to make those weeds stop growing, just like you have to physically pull weeds out of that flowerbed. I want to encourage you to make a conscious effort to weed your heart and mind and replace all that with loving thoughts and actions. You’ll see a much more beautiful harvest of flowers in your life if you will.

Love is patient.  

Love is kind.

Love does not envy.

Love does not boast.

Love is not proud.

Love does not dishonor others.

Love is not self-seeking.

Love is not easily angered.

Love keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in the pain of others but rejoices with the truth.

Love always protects.

Love always trusts.

Love always hopes.

Love always perseveres.

Love never fails. 1 Corinthians 13: 4-8

Hope you have a love filled day!  Angela

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Everyday’s a Birthday…

19 Apr

Boyfriend and Me

…and today just happens to be….Boyfriend’s birthday! We have been celebrating all weekend really, just gonna close the deal today and give him some prezzies tonight! Yay! Prezzies are my fave! He loves a series called Farscape, and it was abruptly ended a few years ago. Sci-fi channel problems or something. They did come back and make a mini-series to wrap up some of it, and then the creator of the show decided to continue the story in graphic novel form. So-o-o-o-o, three of Boyfriend’s gifts are these novels. I hope he reads them fast, because I want a chance at them too! It’s a frelling good show! ;) If you like sci-fi you will really enjoy this series. The characters are a lot of fun and the story lines are pretty interesting most of the time.

I also got him a DVD of a hilarious guy, Gabriel Iglesias, ‘I’m Not Fat, I’m Fluffy!’ We heard him on Comedy Central during our vacation and laughed and laughed at his skit. We ended up watching it 3 or 4 times, so now he will have the DVD to watch as often as he likes. :) He has no idea, I can’t wait to see how he likes all of his gifts! We will be going out with friends soon too to celebrate his b-day, so it may be more like birthday month than just birthday weekend.

Monday came and went and I had a day off! Yippee! I rested, and lounged and just didn’t do much at all. I was also dealing with strained muscles in my back, but I got some help for that from my massage gal and my chiropractor. Apparently my desk and my body don’t like each other very much, so massage gal and my chiropractor both have job security to keep me in shape for life. :)

I now have taxes behind me, so I want to get re-focused on sewing….only problem is my room has turned into a giant pile again, so I will have to clean up before I can sew. Bummer. I’m not too good at keeping it caught up anymore. I’m still pretty organized just messy. Guess it’s time to pull out my notebook and make that list again. :)

Well, gonna leave it here for now. I will let you know how the prezzie part goes later this week. I hope there’s cake! :) Later, Angela

 

 

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March 6th…..

06 Mar

My Beautiful Mom

This is my mother’s birthday. She died over 20 years ago, she was only 54. If she was still here she would be 77. I really miss her sometimes. It was bad the first 3 years after she died, but is only occasionally hard now. We had a very interesting relationship. We actually fought a lot over things. But I knew she loved me even when we were having a throw down…:). She didn’t get to see my kids grow up, but she knew my 3 kids before she died.

The last year or so of her life was spent taking treatments to fight cancer. It was an awful year in many ways, the chemo made her very sick. But it was a wonderful year too in that she and I resolved all our relationship issues. I was also having several health problems, so the plan we decided on had me helping her and dad get through her treatments and recovery, then when I had to have surgery the next year she would take care of me while I recovered. That was the plan. Unfortunately that’s not how things worked out and on February 7th that year we had to say goodbye to her. It was a long year after that. I remember watching the trees turn green and leaves start to come out on them and wondering what in the world was wrong with the trees? Just because nature wanted time to move on didn’t mean I did. But it ignored me and turned from winter to spring, from spring to summer, and so on and so forth until we get to this day.

I had a great mom. She was a very loving and dedicated person. She drove the school bus when we were kids, and she was really good with the kids on the bus. She drove the bus for church, and again was very good with those kids too. At her funeral several adults shared their stories of mom being the reason they chose to be in ministry, or how she was the inspiration for the paths they chose for their life. I’m glad they were there to share. It made the day mean more to me, and is nice to remember all these wonderful things about my mom.

Mom was a seamstress. She could sew long perfectly straight seams. She made clothes for many people. She started quilting a few years before she got sick, but didn’t really ever finish any of them. I do have a couple of things she made for me or my girls. I’m glad I do. I can’t sew like she could, but that’s ok. I sew like I do. That’s the best thing for me.

I have a wonderful dad who is still here. We have dinner at my house every so often. My daughter cooks, because she is the better cook by far. :) We will sit and laugh watching my grandchildren, his great grandchildren. They climb all over him and talk and play. We have a great time when we are together. I’m glad I’ve still got my dad.

How about you? Did you have a great relationship with your parents? I honestly didn’t think me and mom had a great one until I thought about her not being here. We figured out a lot of things in that last year, so I am very thankful we had that time together. We had a lot of fun too. I hope you have had some fun times with your family recently. If not I would highly encourage you to plan something soon. Take advantage of what you still have.

Seams To Me

On another note, I will finally be starting to make that long awaited apron today. I have to cut out the material later and see if I  can follow the directions for it. The book is very detailed, and this is the first project I am making from it. Hopefully it will all go well.

I am using black and white fabrics because that is what my daughter wanted. :) I think it’s going to look very tailored when it’s finished. I will show you how I do it as well. I also have the material to finish my lap quilt and start the new quilt I will be sewing, so pictures are soon to follow. It should be a great sewing month. The materials are shown below.

Life in Black and White

 

I will be using the same sampler idea for the new quilt that I used with my lap quilt. It will be a lot larger though, a king quilt is what has been ordered. I was already planning a queen size one, so I have adjusted the idea a little to accommodate the king size. I’m sure the quilting will be tricky, but I will figure that part out when I get there.

So, hope you enjoyed getting to know my mom a little. I’m glad I like to sew. It helps me feel connected to her still. You all have a great day, and I’ll talk to you soon! Angela

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January…

31 Jan

Ouch!

The beginning of a new year. The first day, week and month of said year. My main concern so far for 2011 was for it to be WAAAAYYYYYY better than 2010. The results to date? So far, so good. Last year I was recovering from gall bladder surgery and getting back into work at this time. So is this year better than last year? Oh my yes! Mo betta fo sho! :) Didn’t I look cute in my cap and gown? Yeah right! At least I had a smile going. I had been sick for weeks prior to this, I was in denial that I needed any help. One emergency room visit started a 3 day drag race to my surgery. Didn’t take long for the doctors to figure out what I was trying to hide from. But yay! That’s all behind me now, and I have the weight gain to prove I can eat again. I will be enjoying a couple of game nights with friends and food soon and will eat a-n-y-t-h-i-n-g I want. :) Just watch! Yum!

So, no surgery in this first month of 2011. That makes it unequivocally better. Ahhhhh! Looking forward to Valentine’s day too, last year’s was very special since it was mine and Boyfriend’s first one together. Wanna see our Loot?

2010 Booty!

I absolutely LOVE Opus, he is the stuffed penguin in the picture. Boyfriend had secretly bought and stashed him to surprise me with on the BIG DAY! I was so happy with that gift too! There is a video called: A Wish For Wings That Worked. It is a Christmas movie starring none other than Opus himself, and I love it! Most of the Opus stuff is older, no new things are really being made, so it made me even happier that he found a stuffed one for me. It was a great Valentine’s day! I bought him the bear just because, and we both liked the fact we had given a stuffed animal to each other. Awwww, sappy I guess, but true!

Boyfriend made me pizza, which I ate it and enjoyed every bite! He even shaped it into a heart for me. :) Wasn’t he a sweetie? It was a very good pizza too, let me tell you! I love a man that can cook!

Pizza Valentine

So, I know I have had a better January. I wonder how much better February is gonna be? I can’t wait to see! We have 2 weekends with get together’s at our game loving friend’s home, and our second Valentine’s day to look forward to. Already setting up to be another wonderful month! Maybe I will get another pizza out of it too, who knows? Or maybe some mouth-watering waffles? Or how about some crepes with that new crepe pan Boyfriend got for Christmas? It’s rumored that there will be be tamales at one of those get together’s too. Hmmmmm……so, yeah, uhm….I’m getting hungry! So, ah, I guess I’ll catch ya later! Snack time! I would love to munch on your comments too ;) , if you would be so kind as to leave one, thanks!

Talk to ya soon, Angela

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My Friend Kathy

30 Oct

My Friend Kathy

Friendships are wonderful things. They bring us moments of great joy, incredible fun, lots of love and laughter. Friends bring color to our lives. Without them our lives would not be as bright and shiny. All the greeting card sentiments that say things like, “Friends are the flowers of our lives,”  about the hugs and kisses, knowing each other so well, even where the bodies are buried.

Hope you all have friends like these. I know I am blessed because I do.

And I love meeting new people. You never know when you are meeting your next best friend. But then again you never know when you are meeting your worst frenemy either ;) .

Good friends are great. Old friends are wonderful. They know your history, and love you anyway. They share common challenges and triumphs. Ups and downs and ins and outs. You go through a lot together when you have been friends for a while. This post is about one of my oldest and dearest friends, whom I lost last year.

We had known each other for 20 years. 2 decades of STUFF! Knew lots of things about each other, some we liked and some we just put up with, because we loved each other.

I didn’t realize how often we talked until she was gone. We didn’t start out talking every day. But over the last few years we had the habit of calling each other every day. Whether it was checking in or catching up, just seeing what the other one was doing or if she was ok, we touched base a lot.

Her name was Kathy. She was only 53 when she passed away, and it was a shock to everyone. I remember when my friend Tina called to tell me Kathy had died. And I started yelling at her. “No she’s not dead! She couldn’t be! I just talked to her last night. She’s sick. She has the flu. She’s going to see the doctor Monday!” I’m yelling at Tina, and she was on the other end sobbing. I felt like a big hole had just opened up under my feet and I was going to fall in. It was Saturday. I wasn’t even dressed to go out yet.

So I threw on my clothes, had to break the news to my family, and check on Kathy and her family. Everybody felt guilty about her dying. Why hadn’t we made her go to the doctor sooner? Why hadn’t we been able to tell how sick she was? Her daughter-in-law was heartbroken and very upset that morning, blaming herself immediately for not knowing. How could she not have known how sick Kathy was, she asked me when I got there. Kathy had downplayed it to her, to all of us. She was fine. She would go to the doctor on Monday. Did I say she was 53? Only 53.

Kathy was a very passionate person. She loved her family. She loved her friends. She loved her church. She was also very strong minded, and had a definite set of rules she wanted everybody to live by. But she loved you even though you couldn’t live by her rules. She never stopped loving you.

Kathy In Pink

She and I had fights quite regularly. Over her health issues, our money problems, job issues, friend issues, ex-husband issues. But we were friends, maybe more like sisters or likes sisters are supposed to be. We fought and we loved. Made up when we needed to, laughed about it when it wasn’t that big a deal. We learned to trust each other. We learn to live together even though we lived apart.

I didn’t realize how often I called her until the week after she died. I sent her 2 e-mails, 5 text messages, and called her 7 times. Each time not remembering until after the fact that she couldn’t answer my e-mail, read my text, or get my voice mail anymore. That was when I realized how often we talked and how often I stayed in touch with her. We’d go to Cherokee together. We looked at Christmas lights together,went to the movies, had dinner. Worried about our kids together. Then our grandkids. Shared frustrations and hopes and happiness and fears. Sometimes all in the same conversation.

Gosh she was fiesty. Sometimes I couldn’t take her being so upset about certain issues. And she would get frustrated about me talking down to her. I didn’t realize I was. She was a fun person. She knew how to have a good time, and laugh and enjoy herself and a good joke or funny story. Planned some great trips. My favorite was a trip she and I took to Charleston one year. We both loved the beach. There was a womens conference we went to. Afterwards we spent the last day at the beach acting like kids again.

She was such a big part of my life and I don’t think she understood it. She felt very threatened by a new relationship that had started for me and it took us a few weeks for she and I to figure it out. I didn’t understand her fears at first. But one night after a heated debate we were able to work it all out and she had realized her fears so far were unjustified. And we did our regular scheduled thing of taking a friend out to dinner and a movie just a couple days later. She told me she was sorry for being insecure about my boyfriend and I told her I was sorry for talking down to her. I hadn’t meant to.

The next week I got the flu. Got over that. The following week I went on vacation. So she and I were talking on the phone but did not getting to see each other during this time. When I got back from vacation, we were suppose to go to dinner. Kathy got sick, and we postponed going out to the week after. Unfortunately there wasn’t a week after for Kathy. She died that weekend. Now I miss my friend.

I am sure her children miss their mother and other friends miss her as well. I have other wonderful friends,and they try to help me deal with my grief too. I’m sure the anniversary of her death is what is bringing it so close to home again.

So I miss you Kathy.
And I am sure I will always love you.
You make sure God has heaven straight.
I am going to join you one day.
I am mostly glad you are having a good time.
I am happy for you, sad for me. Sad for us.
I just miss you. I just miss you still.

Did I mention she had a thing for Peanuts? Charles Schulz’s Peanuts. She had a few little collectibles and so did I. She always tried to steal mine. Kathy, I am going to make you jealous now because Boyfriend bought me a book.  “Peanuts Holidays Through The Year: Five Classic Stories.” All mine. Not yours. :P That’s ok. If you wanna, we can have a fight over it later. :)

I love you girl. Always will. Period.

Me and Kathy

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Anniversaries: Love is the Best Refreshment in Life

08 Oct

Well, this has been an exciting few days. I have celebrated an anniversary with Boyfriend, met his parents for the first time, and celebrated one of my three grandson’s 5th birthday. The anniversary part was wonderful! The other things were great too, but I have to say our anniversary was the best ;) . I have a great sweetie! Let me tell you all about the neat stuff boyfriend got me, he is really great about things like that :) . I don’t know if you have ever read the book, The 5 Love Languages by Gary Chapman, but I have. It has a simple and complicated version of a test you take that tells you what your primary love language is: Physical Touch, Acts of Service, Gifts, Quality Time and Words of Affirmation. The answer for me is always the same: gifts. Boyfriend took great mental notes when we have talked about this, and now always does a great job. Now don’t think that I have to have big expensive things, sometimes the gift can be a simple flower picked in the yard, or a handwritten note, or a card. Boyfriend is learning my tastes very well and got me some wonderful things for our anniversary. Now, for the stuff!

Butterfly Glitter Star Lamp/Lantern

Butterfly Glitter Star Lamp/Lantern

This little beauty will be added to my assortment of Hippie Lights at home. That’s what my granddaughter calls them, the 6 year old. We get on my bed to snuggle and turn on those lights and the room is bathed in a beautiful soft light. I love it! I love butterflies as well, so this was the perfect addition to our little group. Next…..

A beautiful pair of hand enameled earrings, again in the shape of butterflies. They are mostly blue and white, small and beautiful. I tried to put a photo here to show them off, but wordpress is not cooperating at the moment. He also gave me one of my favorite movies, the newAlice in Wonderland with Johnny Depp (again, I can’t get the picture to upload, sorry). It is such a beautiful movie. I saw it first with my Bug (youngest child of my three, mother of two). She also loves Mr. Depp. It was of course in 3-D. Boyfriend was sadly away on a business trip the weekend the movie came out, so naturally I had to catch him up to speed the next weekend, so he and I went again, and yes, again in 3-D. I really loved how the flowers and colors and little things like the horseflies and dragonflies jumped out at you. Alas, the dvd is not 3-D, but I am still very happy with it nonetheless.
Well folks! How do you celebrate your anniversaries? What are some of your favorite prezzies? I would love to hear your stories too, just leave a comment below to share! Have a great weekend too….again! How do they get here so fast? ;)

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The Walking Wounded

22 Jul

Life has shot arrows at all of us. Unfortunately it isn’t some figurative bow they come from, but actual hands and mouths of people we know. Christians like to shoot their wounded, so they are gone and don’t remind them of their failures in ministry. But then…..others still open arms and hearts, like Ann Voskamp does, to try to answer questions, to help us not feel alone, to remind us we are not the only wounded soul on this planet…..sad is that, but true. Ann, I want to thank you for your blog. http://www.aholyexperience.com/ It has been a refreshing fountain for me to come and sit beside. You are a blessing to me.

A Place of Defense

I have been reading her for a few weeks now, her life is so different than mine, but still we have suffered similar things. Funny that thing of experience. Pain knows no boundaries, and we have all been touched by it. One of my dear Catholic friends once told me our pain is never wasted, God sees it as a sacrifice, sees and aches and hears our cries, so to never feel our pain is wasted. I am 4 or 5 years divorced from my former husband of 28 years, 3 children, and now 6 grand-children. Never thought it would be like that. But the nights when all I could do was collapse on my kitchen floor and cry, and ask the same questions we all have asked, “Why God? Why me? What did I do to deserve this, why are You letting this happen to me, to us, to my family?” Left for a time wondering if He even heard me, ever, at all.

But then, in a desperate night, feeling like a piece of garbage thrown away, God sent a friend. An old friend I wasn’t in touch with, who suddenly had my cell number and was calling me. Do I answer, or do I not? I answered, and then decided not to kill myself that night, not giving into the aching part of me that screamed I was a failure and it was all my fault. Because of course it wasn’t. God gave her, my friend, what I needed in that desperate hour to not do a desperate thing. And I made it through that night, and then a week, a month, almost a year…..

Folly Beach

A place to rest...

Then again, when I needed some desperate touch from someone in flesh and blood and not just ethereal God, another friend from long ago and far away calls, warning of disaster, need to change this and not do that, real specific things she couldn’t have known without Someone giving her details. Once again, disaster was averted, and I was ok, and didn’t feel so lost, or abandoned or uncared for.

I pray for those of you who have suffered too. Suffered at the hands of friends, suffered at the hands of family, suffered from places too vast to mention here. I pray for you. For the same God who came to my desperate need and rescue to do the same wonderful things you need, and rescue you from a pit of despair, or a dark night or cloudy day. I know it won’t be exactly the same as what He did for me, because you need specific things for yourselves. I will be watching and reading as you share. Tell me how you have been rescued, how God and the universe did what you needed, and when and how.

You are not alone. If you are reading this, you are not alone. Others have suffered and survived and grown through it. You can too. That is also a prayer I will pray for you. I pray for your heart and soul to be washed in peace, to be rinsed in love and to be softened in hope. To dry and be strong, not brittle or hard, but strength of character, of honor, of justice. If injustice has been served to you, do not become the thing you hate and serve injustice to others. Serve Justice, Rightness, Quality. Do not become the thing you hate. Do not give in to it. Reach out and reach up. You can do this.

We are here together in this space and time. Thank you for sharing your thoughts with me. I cherish each response. As always, Angela

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Holding On, Letting Go

12 Jul

I hold onto things. I have a hard time letting go. I think I learned this from my parents. Fine folks, my parents. Really good people. Parents raised by parents that survived a Depression, people who didn’t let go of anything because you never knew when you wouldn’t have enough, or when you might need more, or just have to have that thing you just let go of. So, I have learned my lessons well, and have a hard time letting go.

Unfortunately, I have lots of stuff I haven’t let go of yet. Bits of colored cloth I might make into something one day. Broken jewelry that needs a new clasp, or a broken bead removed, that will tarnish or turn before I get around to fixing it. A broken cup I keep gluing back together with Elmer’s school glue….non-toxic….I figure I can still use it if it’s non-toxic, right? A couple of pairs of shoes I can’t break in, they hurt my feet so badly! But I paid new price for them, so how can I just let them go?

Unfortunately too, it’s not just tangible things I hold on to, it’s many intangibles I have forgotten I hold. Memories that pop up like ugly jesters to poke fun of me in my head; “Aha! Caught you! You really are dumb, know that? You can’t figure this out, why even try?” The mocking words can go on and on, unless I think about it and stop them. Sometimes it takes me a little while to realize these words are rolling on and on in my head, like loose marbles rattling around, bumping into things and stirring up dust and cobwebs. Then suddenly I really hear them, and I stop, and think, now why am I doing this? And then I stop them. On Purpose. No, I am not dumb, I can figure this out. If I can’t figure this out, I can ask for help from my friends. I try because I can try, I have abilities and have worked hard to know and understand things, so….I might not have my answers right now, but I will….and not just my answers, but God answers, and friend answers or just because I needed it answers, an answer shows up and tells me hello. The answer will come. I just need to let go….

Let go of the anxiousness, let go of the fear, let go of the doubt and take hold of other things. Those things that are lovely, things that are pure, things that are noble, admirable and right…think and ponder and dwell on these things. Your puppy’s smiling face when you get home from work, the grand-baby that runs wide open into your arms when you pull up to see them. The day we get rain. The day we don’t. The way your significant one looks at you like you are a long tall glass of water on a very hot day. The fireman that saved the kid, or the dog, or the cat. The lost child that was found, the found treasure that was lost.

Hold on to the good, let go of the so-so. Hold onto things that are needed, let go of the excess. Hold on to the love, to the happiness, the fun and good times. Think on these things. Make a conscious effort to change your mind. Think on these things.

So, I need to take my own advice…and let go….

Let go of those things I hold onto that only weigh me down. Bitterness at lost friends, anger at an ex-boss, disappointment in myself for not being greater than and all that and better and super. Just let go, and love me and love others and love God and ….just….let….go…..and lean into that love that is there from children and grandchildren, from good friends and family. Love of color, love of fun, love of good food, and good times and all the good things I have been blessed with. So, …

Let’s learn together of the the things we need to let go of, and in return the good things we need to hold on to. To let go of mediocre because we are afraid better isn’t coming. To hold onto hope, because it is one of the greatest powers on earth. To let go of doubt, and fear because they are poison to our hearts and minds. Hold on with me, and I’ll hold on with you!

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